Confessions of a Man Who Suffered From Locked-In Syndrome
How did you get locked-in?
I was diagnosed with a terminal progressive disease May 24, 2017 called toxic acute progressive leukoenpholopathy. I declined rapidly over the next few months and by the fifth month I began suffering from locked-in syndrome. Two months after that I was sent on home hospice to die. I timed out of hospice and I broke out of locked in syndrome around July 4, 2018. I was communicating nonverbally and living in rehabilitation hospitals, relearning to speak, move, eat, and everything. I finally moved out of long-term care back to my new home December 1, 2020.
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Japan’s Sole Titanic Survivor Was Shunned as a Coward For Not Pershing With the Shit
In the early hours of April 15, 1912, the RMS Titanic, a marvel of modern engineering, met with catastrophe in the icy waters of the North Atlantic. Among its passengers was Masabumi Hosono, a Japanese civil servant, whose survival would become a source of national controversy and personal disgrace.
Born in 1870, Hosono was an employee of the Japanese Ministry of Transport. In 1910, he was sent to Russia to study the country’s railway system, and it was on his return journey to Japan that he boarded the Titanic at Southampton as a second-class passenger.
Confession of the Day
Haven’t yet had sex with my wife of 2.5 years and I feel like I’m in a prison and am rotting from the inside
We saved sex for marriage, didn’t really grow up in purity culture, or at least feel any shame or pressure. The night of our wedding was met with tears and fear. I admittedly didn’t react well. Trying to understand if I did something, or if there was something she wasn’t telling me.
The next 6 months was me highlighting the fact that we NEEDED to figure this out, not only for me, but because we can’t make it normal. She didn’t understand why I wanted this so bad and was confident we’d figure this out.
2 years from that point, we’re still here. 3 different counselors/therapists, 1 year of pelvic therapy, lots of honest talks with friends and still no penetration. At all. Vibrator is fine, but we’ve made no progress. She is unable to get her legs to relax and if I try to force it, it feels like rape. I can’t stay aroused because she’s resisting me, despite her telling me every day that this is something she wants.
I just don’t understand what I’m supposed to do. She doesn’t want me to watch porn, but I can’t get by with handjobs that I only get if I ask for them. I can’t leave because I vowed to work through our problems, I can’t stay because I want to actually have a chance at a family. I want someone who is passionate about me and actually does something about it. Every marriage in my family has ended, every single one has ended in divorce and I am better than that. But I just don’t see how I’m supposed to live in limbo like this.
I often fantasize about me or her dying because it’s the only way I see out of this.
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Even If It’s Not Your Fault, It’s Your Responsibility
In the grand theater of life, we often find ourselves cast in roles we didn’t audition for, facing scenes we didn’t write, and delivering lines we didn’t create. It’s a common human experience to feel like a passenger in the vehicle of life, especially when things go awry. But there’s a powerful truth that, once embraced, can transform us from passive onlookers into directors of our own destiny: Even when it’s not your fault, it’s your responsibility.
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What it Takes to Wear the Sudoku Crown – NY Times
She Played ‘Winnie Cooper’ on The Wonder Years. See Danica McKellar Now at 48 – Wanderer
Whatever Happened to ‘The Toxic Avenger’ Actor Robert Prichard? – Ned Hardy
Every entrepreneur needs to read this book. It will teach you how to be run a business and not just be another employee in your business – Amazon
What U.S. Submariners Actually Say About Detection Of So-Called Unidentified Submerged Objects – The Drive
Google paid a whopping $26.3 billion in 2021 to be the default search engine everywhere – The Verge
Big brother fights his little sisters stalker – Reddit
To Be Happier at Work, Invest More in Your Relationships – HBR
How to train your brain to become more curious – Fast Co
How to Train for Long-Term Success – Outside
How a Single Act by John Connor’s Friend in Terminator 2 Saved the Human Race – Wanderer
New Jersey high school students accused of making AI-generated pornographic images of classmates – CBS
This is the perfect size travel coffee and tea mug, that will fit perfectly in your cup holder and will last you a life time – Amazon
Cave explorer almost died when missed a airhole – Reddit
Gen Z wants to retire early. They’re off to a good start – Insider
9 Ways You’re Making Dating More Complicated and Difficult (and How to Overcome Them) – Knowledge For Men
ChatGPT continues to be one of the fastest-growing services ever – The Verge
41 seconds is all you need to learn how to keep a choking baby from dying – Upworthy
The Dumping Grounds
The IRS Doesn’t Want You to Know This One Simple Trick
There Is No Secret to Getting Rich
In a world that seems to be chasing the next big financial secret or get-rich-quick scheme, the true path to wealth is surprisingly straightforward and open to all: spend less than you earn, invest wisely, and let compound interest work its magic. This formula, as simple as it sounds, is the bedrock of personal finance and the foundation upon which lasting wealth is built.
