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This is gonna be hard, but I have to tell this, so that maybe someone will wake up and open their eyes…
Porn has ruined my life. I am sure of it now. It’s poison for your body, mind and soul. It’s so insidious because it plays with your basic, natural instincts, and on the surface level it seems unavoidable. I mean, sex is good and natural, right? Well, I don’t know, because I’ve never had sex. I’m 41 by the way.
The programming: Indulge your hedonistic desires to your heart’s content. It’s normal, healthy and free.
Except… It’s not normal. The monkey brain wasn’t made for the world of on-demand, high-def, infinite-variety porn that can be delivered straight into the eye sockets of anybody with a working internet connection.
Porn, like compulsive gambling and spree shopping, is an extreme example of the brain’s reward system being highjacked by an exaggerated version of a naturally healthy stimulus. Just as the gambler needs to keep pulling that lever to get their dopamine fix, so do porn addicts learn to blunt themselves into docile submissiveness with their habit.
Currently I am on an 200 day streak I think. I haven’t kept count anymore, because how you spend your days matter more than a number.
2 years ago I was depressed, had terrible social anxiety and was very unhappy with my life, only sitting inside on my PC. You can read everything back in my history. I was sad not having friends or a relationship.
Currently I have a few friends, with whom I sometimes go out. I go to festivals alone to socialize. I have had my first job, first kiss, went on a few dates, no longer a virgin, a girlfriend, I am more social, better self esteem, stopped therapy since I outgrew it (according to the professionals) and probably more that I can’t remember. A lot of good stuff has happened.
