I’ve been a side chick for over 5 years.
I didn’t know he had another girlfriend until about 2.5 years into the relationship. Keep in mind, by this time I was already so deep in love with this man and thought I’d marry him. Lost my v-card to him and everything. We met when I was young and he was a bit older and the effect he had on me was insane. To cut a long story short, I was so in love with him already that I couldn’t bear the thought of being without him. So I stayed. Fuck me, I know.
She doesn’t know about me, but I know about her. His excuse for this whole thing is that he needs to stay with her because he’s getting a permanent visa via their relationship. And that once he gets it, he’ll leave her and we’ll be together. I know this is fucking stupid but I literally love this man so much I don’t know how to leave.
But I know I must leave, and I’ve been slowly building the courage. It’s especially hard because I have an insane level of chemistry with him. We’re so compatible in every way, besides the fact that he has someone else. He helps me financially and emotionally and I love being around him and the sex is great. But I know this fucked up situation has to end and I need to move on. He lives with her too, they own a house and share a bed but he claims they don’t sleep together (???).
I guess what’s tipped me over the edge is that I just found out they adopted a dog together. We would always speak about adopting a husky together one day but he’s gone and done it with her behind my back.
This “””relationship””” was doomed from the start and I know what I have to do. The thought of living my life without him is almost too painful to think about. But it can’t be much worse than crying myself to sleep every night knowing he’s in bed with another woman.
And yes I know I’m a homewrecker and a fucking idiot and a loser but what else is this sub for?
– Decent_West_1841
Theodore Lee is the editor of Caveman Circus. He strives for self-improvement in all areas of his life, except his candy consumption, where he remains a champion gummy worm enthusiast. When not writing about mindfulness or living in integrity, you can find him hiding giant bags of sour patch kids under the bed.